Monday, August 31, 2009

Weigh in #1

Today it has been 1 week. I lost 6 lbs. My weight today was 305 lbs. Still too high, but great start. It gives me hope to continue. i had a really good week on my eating. Things to work on, things to continue.

1. VEGGIES and FRUITS - work on this

My weight watchers points go down to 36 now.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

When reality hits you...

Do any of you ever wake up and get "dolled up" and feel pretty/amazing/beautiful/just "ta-da". You are ready to "conquer the day". Only later to see a picture of yourself and have your whole world come shattering down around you? Well, I had just that this weekend.

I have always been big, heavy, fat...always, since I can remember. But, I have always "carried it well" or so I/everyone else have told me/myself. I have let this "lie" convince me that I am big and fat but that I am not as big and fat as I really am...does that make sense?

Well, today was my best friend's wedding. I searched and searched for a dress. I bought one on eBay, and HATED it. My hips looked huge...not flattering...wrong color...etc. So I found another one at Lane Bryant and was "settling" with it. At 8:00 am Saturday my best friend, her maid of honor and I went and got our hair done and got all "dolled up". I thought I looked beautiful. I went to the wedding, the morning/early afternoon part. My husband took pictures...then we came home in between before the night time ring ceremony and this is what I found on our camera!!!

I was shattered! I look huge...which means I AM HUGE! More huge than I even realized! More huge than I imagined. I was devastated. What's worse is that NO ONE, not ONE person let me know who AWFUL and UNFLATTERING that dress was.

So...this is a wake up call...butt in gear!~

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Day 4

It has been a pretty good week, start to the diet, whatever we should call it. I have stayed within my points everyday but one, and that day I used 2 flex points. So, pretty good. I have been drinking LOTS and LOTS of water, which feels good. I have just added those 5 calorie crystal lights to the water when I need a break from just plain old water. I am not a huge water fan unless there is TONS of ice. But I have been doing it.

Fruits and veggies has been OK. Mostly the fruit. I am a picky eater believe it or not. Especially when it comes to green things. But I am making an effort, so that is a plus.

I am still not in the swing of moving, exercising, but I am sure that will come. I am focusing on one thing, or a couple things at a time...I don't want to "overload" myself and then get discouraged and stop altogether. I did order a biggest loser workout DVD for $4.00 on ebay, so I am hoping that will motivate me a little. And as soon as I can get my stupid knee to cooperate that would be wonderful too.

On the whole I am feeling good. I did learn something yesterday though...when you get hungry you gotta eat. You can't wait...cause if you do you binge. Even on a diet. I waited and by the time I ate i was STARVING...and ate way too many points all at once then felt rather sick. So I need to work on eating every 2 or 3 hours. That's my goal for the rest of the week...listen my body

Monday, August 24, 2009


I have started a weight loss blog before, but chickened out, or rather "stopped" the diet, but this time...this time there is no choice. I am out of control. I am unhealthy. I am unhappy. I am in need of a new way to look at here goes. My stats, yes I am being SUPER brave posting these. I am going to be following weight watchers at home....I am going to try to post everyday, if not everyday, on a regular basis to keep myself in line. So, here goes:

Starting weight: 311lbs (YIKES)
Neck measurement: 16'
Bust measurement: 47'
Waist measurement: 50'
hip measurement: 61'
arm measurement: 20'

Points allowed each day: 37 pts
I also have 35 flex pts each week