Thursday, October 29, 2009


So, what do you do when you hate veggies? Is there a magic pill that will make me like them? Its not that I hate ALL veggies...just a lot of them...especially the ones that are really good for you that fill you up. When you are dieting I know veggies are supposed to be your best friend, especially cause they are low in calories and big on that "fill you up magic" but I am just a picky eater.

Anyone got a magic trick for this? Something that they do with their kids?

Monday, October 26, 2009

Will I ever get it?

Every time I say I am going to blog more, write down more I don't. So, I am not going to say that this time...then I won't feel terrible when I don't do it. I am simply going to say I am still plugging along...I have a question for you three or so who actually read this blog...

HOW DO I MAKE MYSELF LIKE TO EXERCISE? Or do I just simply motivate myself to do it? It's not that I don't "know" I need to. I DO! I know that I will never get to a "healthy" weight without it. I just have no motivation to make my 290+ lb body run, or walk, or do jumping jacks and hurt. I have no motivation to do it alone. I have no desire to feel like a failure when I can't finish 10 minutes of a 30 minute workout. Does anyone else get this way? How do you overcome it? do you ever?

I weighed in today and am down 2.2 lbs. Total of 18.9lbs. Still my clothes fit "about" the same. I KNOW that's because I haven't added in toneing...haven't added in exercise...that should motivate me...but it hasn't. Anyone want to give me a kick in the butt????

Thursday, October 15, 2009


This is a new thing for me...accountability. With this weight watchers/diet thing I am actually being accountable to someone...the most important person there is really, myself. Of course my husband, and family are important, and in fact they are MORE important to me. BUT, in losing weight I have to do it for me. And honestly this is the FIRST time I have actually done it for ME. Not because society said "you're too fat" or because I wanted to be a size 2 (although this would be nice) or because my husband wanted me stick thin (cause he doesn't, he loves my curves...why i dont know, but he does, really, i mean how lucky am i?) But, this time I am actually doing it for me. For my happiness. for MY health. For my sanity.

this is such a new thing for me. But I can honestly say in 7 and a half weeks I have written down EVERY SINGLE THING I have eaten. I have taken accountability for my choices. Have I always been proud? NO. Have I always been healthy? NO WAY. But, I have always been accountable. I have always said "wow, that wasn't so good. tomorrow will be better" Or I have said "tonight is a special occasion I am going to splurge." and I can also say I have not ONCE gone over my points for the week. Granted I have used my flex points almost every week, but NEVER gone over. That's HUGe for me. So today I am celebrating my accountablity.

I am thinking starting in Jan. I want a group to be accountable to and some healthy competition. But for right now I am accountable to me, and that feels GREAT!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Start of week 7

Today was weigh in. Down 4.6 lbs. Total of 17.4 lbs. Which is great, I'll take it. I am a little discouraged that my clothes aren't fitting looser. I am in the same sizes. Nothing seems to feel different. Anyone else experience that? I am excited to hit the 20lb mark. Gotta keep going. Gotta keep going.

Monday, October 5, 2009


This is the first time since I started this weight loss program that I have actually gained. Granted, it was only .2 lbs, but it was still a gain. It’s frustrating. I know that part of the reason is that I am not really exercising. I am doing more than I “normally” do, but that isn’t saying MUCH. I need to kick it up. I also need to make a conscious effort to eat better foods. Yes, I am staying within my points, but they are not the healthiest choices in foods. So, those are my goals this week. Hopefully next Monday will show me a loss.