Wednesday, June 16, 2010

bump question

Am I a bad person because I really, really don't want to take bump pictures? I mean I KNOW if I don't Ill regret it later, but it is such a hard time in my life. On the 1 hand I am so excited, happy, nervous, loving/loved, etc. On the other I am sick, tired, huge (i seriously look like Im 7 months...Im not even 4 yet).

Just a thought...wondered opinions

Monday, June 14, 2010


I kind of decided I was going to not do this blog at all during pregnancy, but that seems to be a mistake. So, ill check in from time to time.

The first trimester i thought I was going to die. I was SO sick! Headaches, throwing up, exhaustion, bronchitis, etc. NO FUN! Then I hit the 2nd trimester and it was literally like night and day. Except I now have a cold, but I have more energy, so i don't feel as bad with this cold.

I am struggling, really struggling with the weight gain. I KNOW it's ok to gain some weight. I also know that the baby needs it. But it's hard when you have numerous people around you who are pregnant, and you can't tell, or better yet, they have LOST weight!>>> (sigh of horrible jealousy) I was huge when I got pregnant, I know that, the world knows that. But I am feeling bigger by the day, and I am only 15 weeks. Sigh. This is going to be a long process. I know its for the better good, but its hard not to compare...anyone have suggestions on that?

So far I have gained 11 lbs (although before I got pregnant I gained all the weight I lost back plus 3 lbs. SO, it feels like I have gained 30! Sigh, but the dr's notes and such, which I am going off of say i am taking that, so i don't completely freak. I keep telling myself in Jan. i can start hard again...but it seems forever away.

Wow, this was a depressing post. On a happy note, my hubby loves me no matter what and supports me 110%